Monday, March 30, 2009
Sadly, I think my milk is drying up. Makenna still wants to nurse and I still want to nurse her but I don't know if I'm going to have that choice. Last night I nursed her at bedtime and then DJ put her down. A few minutes later she started crying. After about 10 minutes he went and got her and I put her in bed with me. She still cried so I nursed her again. I still couldn't get her to go to sleep. I knew she didn't feel good so I had DJ get some Motrin. She sucked that down like she was hungry. So I gave her a bottle of milk (she is drinking whole milk now when she doesn't get breast milk). She drank about 4oz. Then she went to sleep. She woke up about 2 hours later. I tried to nurse her but she would only nurse for a few seconds and then pop off and cry. So DJ gave her a bottle and she drank 4oz. I had to give her a bottle twice today after I nursed her. I really wanted her to go straight from nursing to the sippy cup but she doesn't like the sippy cups very much and I can't get her to take very much milk from them. She drinks a little bit but not as much as she needs. I'm going to continue to nurse her and if she continues to need milk afterward that then I will probably start weaning her. Although it probably won't take much because I'm not making much milk. She did nurse very well this morning and didn't want a bottle afterward so if we can we will probably hang onto that one for a while. I'm very sad about this. Especially because we both aren't ready. It's not a choice we made, my body just won't cooperate. I know most people will say that she is one years old and needs to be weaned anyway but I disagree with that. I had plans to continue to nurse for a while and now I don't think that will happen. I'm very sad about this but there isn't much I can do about it. We will continue to try to nurse for a while and see how it goes. I also hope to get rid of the bottle for good very soon. If anyone has any suggestions on how to get her take the sippy cup I'm all ears. We have tried several different kinds, even the straw kind but it doens't seem to make a difference. I'm going to work hard over the next month to get rid of the bottle. In the meantime I will try to deal with my sadness and hopefully get to nurse for a little while longer.